by Melanie Irizarry on Friday, March 27, 2009 at 11:44pm
Fast forward a few years now, 2 to be precise, after the first time I KNEW God was in my life, and another pivotal moment for me emerges amidst the chaos. My once frustration was bordering towards an angry feeling in my prayers when the stress of home life began to effect my relationship with my friends. The day before I had my best girlfriend over . Her and I were in the garage and long story short I ended up having go chase her down the street and comfort her at a near by friends house after she witnessed my stepdad throw me. When the sirens came down my street I knew where they were headed so I then left her there to make sure all was ok at my house. My once strong demeanor slouched a little following this as her face replayed back through my mind over and over that night when I tried to sleep. Things weren't ok. How do I process this?
The next night I was in a truck with some friends after service. They took me home but before i could get out of the truck I broke down and asked them to pray for my family and for me. I told them everything and they didnt' know what to do but pray. .... They prayed for me that God would bring that peace.
An hour or so later i was in my room. I felt like in my heart God was saying "READ MICAH" I had no idea of that was even a book in the bible so I chalked this inkling of a specific demand up to an overactive imagination. This word came to me again and again though throughout the night until finally I said ... OK... I'll go ahead and flip it open to see if this is even a legit idea. The only place I had heard the name Micah at that point was in regards to a kid in my algebra class. Sure enough when I opened the bible I opened directly to the book of Micah. I went ahead and read. At fist I dint' have a clue as to why God would want me to open to this page if in fact I even was hearing his voice..... but then all of the sudden as I read it was like an entire line jumped off the page "HE WILL BE THEIR PEACE" - Micah 5:5. A peace cme over me and I knew in a moment everything I needed to. It wasn't about finding eace in my life in the outward things. IT was never about that. God never promised us that if we accepted him that everything would begin to function to our desired specifications in the world around us but rather that in the good and bad we could have peace in knowing HE IS WITH US. The peace I felt I was lacking was only lacking because I was looking to an external environment that was wrecked to give me what only God in my heart could give me. HE IS MY PEACE, HE IS MY ROCK, HES IS MY REFUGE IN THE MIDST OF THE STORY.
GOD IS OUR PEACE.
This truth carried me many years without even allowing room for a question or a faltering eye. I KNEW God was never far off.
And the truth is even today is not.
The next night I was in a truck with some friends after service. They took me home but before i could get out of the truck I broke down and asked them to pray for my family and for me. I told them everything and they didnt' know what to do but pray. .... They prayed for me that God would bring that peace.
An hour or so later i was in my room. I felt like in my heart God was saying "READ MICAH" I had no idea of that was even a book in the bible so I chalked this inkling of a specific demand up to an overactive imagination. This word came to me again and again though throughout the night until finally I said ... OK... I'll go ahead and flip it open to see if this is even a legit idea. The only place I had heard the name Micah at that point was in regards to a kid in my algebra class. Sure enough when I opened the bible I opened directly to the book of Micah. I went ahead and read. At fist I dint' have a clue as to why God would want me to open to this page if in fact I even was hearing his voice..... but then all of the sudden as I read it was like an entire line jumped off the page "HE WILL BE THEIR PEACE" - Micah 5:5. A peace cme over me and I knew in a moment everything I needed to. It wasn't about finding eace in my life in the outward things. IT was never about that. God never promised us that if we accepted him that everything would begin to function to our desired specifications in the world around us but rather that in the good and bad we could have peace in knowing HE IS WITH US. The peace I felt I was lacking was only lacking because I was looking to an external environment that was wrecked to give me what only God in my heart could give me. HE IS MY PEACE, HE IS MY ROCK, HES IS MY REFUGE IN THE MIDST OF THE STORY.
GOD IS OUR PEACE.
This truth carried me many years without even allowing room for a question or a faltering eye. I KNEW God was never far off.
And the truth is even today is not.
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